Not Exactly as Planned

Monday--a day that I'll never forget. It's ironic how I had expected quite another kind of day the night before. But I'm not surprised, really.
I went to the Rainbow Center, brought some cds I had made on Friday, some old ones, brought all my lyric collection to share... was tired, hadn't slept...

Sat on the seat
tried to talk
Jason I sat next to
He creeps me out
Why do I try?
He bores me too
So mysterious
I have an inkling
he uses that to be more interesting
but just a facade
so forget it
He's not honest
Don't want anything to do with that
then Lyle comes up
Doesn't say hi
climbs up on ladder
fixes fan
I don't say hi sometimes too
But I start talking to him
then stop
oh, yeah I did say hi
but he's deaf
but doesn't say
how much does he act like he hears that he doesn't
and how much of that does he reject as unacceptable
I swore later
he heard that
he put his foot down
forget the rest
he can't hear the rest

Anyway, went outside
WTA lady comes around again
tells me I can't smoke there
I refuse to move
who does she think she is
doesn't she have better ways to spend her time
is this what homeland security money being spent on
harrassing people who are minding their own business
fuck her
what a bitch
just so she can feel better about herself
she wants to mess with the crazy girl at the rainbow center
so mean
i don't want to learn how to be more like that
anyway
she called her goons
they flanked me
they cornered me
they tried to intimidate me
because I smoked outside of a building

Discrimination:
It's discrimination when you target one group of people over another. No where else are they telling people to not smoke outside of doors. Leave the mentally ill, homeless and poor people alone, you bastards. You should be ashamed of yourselves. You disgust me. Heartless, unseeing, callous. It hurts to be picked on, it hurts to see your friends picked on by bullies. Just stop. You are worse examples to the young than people smoking cigarettes. You spread hate and intimidation. Go fuck yourselves. Go learn something. I don't know, I don't care, just stop being so obviously bigoted.
I'm obviously really angry and hurt right now. But I will retain my values, ethics, morals, ideals. I will turn this into a positive, a vehicle to make things better. I will keep my eye on dignity; my own and everyone's. Of course, I'll falter some, but I will never lose sight.
Peace